Series: The Truth About Love
Author: MJ Fields
Genre: Contemporary Romance
Publish Date: October 16, 2016
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A long time ago...
I was young and naive. I thought I could save the world. I
thought that protecting those around me from hurt and pain was what I was born
to do. She made me feel that way. Ava Links, the little girl who was too
fucking stubborn for her own good. The little girl who absorbed the hurt and
pain of everyone around her and tried to bring sunshine to them all. The little
girl who didn’t give a damn if people picked on her about wearing a crown and
tutu every day. A little girl who somehow looked at me, expecting—no, damn near
demanding—I protect her.
I saw the pain she hid, and as I grew older, I understood
that pain. The pain of being so much to so many that there is really never a
“you”.
I took control of my life...
I had to get away from everyone who pulled at me in order to
claim myself. When I became the man I was destined to be, I began to live.
Then, one drunken night, Ava Links, no longer a little girl, said the right
damn thing to me, and everything changed. After seven years of fucking her
while home on leave with no expectations, now my life is out of control…
One bad dream, one I love you, one night of pushing her the
hell out of my life, one drummer stealing her heart, and one explosion took
everything away.
Lies are told.
Lies are unraveling.
Lies are going to destroy.
These are my truths.
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This is a book where we really see how love conquers all. How a person will fight for another, when they know that he/she is the one.
For years, Luke Lane used and abused Ava Links. For years, Luke pushed her away. For years, he told her he felt nothing. For years, he told her that he did not love her. For years .... he lied.
They always say that you never know what you have, until it's gone. You don't appreciate who is there, until she is no longer yours. That is exactly what Luke learned in this epic tale of 27 Lies. Luke knew that he could always come back to Ava on leave. He knew that she would always wait for him. However, he was always in a hurry. Hurry to hit it and quit it.
Ava and Luke grew up together. She was his princess that he didn't want to admit held his heart. The military hardened him and he made everyone believe that she meant nothing to him. She was just a piece that he came home to, whom he received letters and pictures from, but didn't mean anything solid. She meant nothing until home on leave and she is engaged to marry another. Did she mean more to him, now that she was unavailable?
She rushed to get married and he knew that he lost her forever. Until one fateful night, when everything changed. Ava's world came crashing down around her and HE was the one there to comfort and console her, even if she didn't want it. Ava fought Luke, tooth and nail, but in a big plot twist, you find out why he fights so hard for what is his. Their lives will never be the same and although Luke didn't see this coming, this is exactly what he wanted.
Lies are told, although truths are revealed. 27 Lies is one hell of a story that grips you and doesn't let go. Thing is ... you want to be held strong. I didn't want this story to end because it has so many happy and unexpected twists and turns. I have a new love and appreciation for MJ Fields. She rocked this series. Upon finishing, I immediately purchased a copy. I want to forever keep Luke and Ava close.
I watch as Dad and Tessa pull away from the curb, the place
where Thomas Hardy, the love of my life, smiled at me before he took his last
breath. I was so sure it wasn’t his last, and I was as sure that him being on
life support would eventually mean he would wake up and tell me he loved me
again.
Standing erect atop the gray sidewalk is the light pole that
he was crushed against, pinned between it and a car, while on his way to get me
a Snickers bar that I didn’t need.
No, I need him.
I stand on the balcony and take in a calming breath. The
babies are sleeping inside, freshly bathed, adorned in the cutest clothes money
can buy, swaddled in their very own Bingos that I have in triplicate because my
father insists I need them that way. Their bellies are full, and they have been
rocked asleep in my arms.
There is no way they can actually be affected by my pain, my
anger, my sadness, but I never want them to. Therefore, if I keep my grief to
their sleeping hours, I know they will be okay. I close my eyes tight and pray
they will be okay.
Praying. Why do I still bother?
I place my elbows on the brick overhang, peering down at
that spot where black meets gray, where the love of a man and a woman got taken
away in the blink of an eye.
But it’s not gone. My love. T and my love will never go
away. We have a forever love.
I stand back and wrap my arms tight around myself, letting
out a low groan and releasing the pain, the anger, the hate, and all the ugly
in a place where I know I can, where it will not affect a soul.
The clouds use this time to part, and the sun peers through
and shines down on me. Emotions come to a roiling boil in that moment, and I
shut my eyes, seeing Thomas smiling back at me.
The sun … The sun is T, my T, my love and my pain.
Really, there isn’t anything I look at that doesn’t remind
me of him and the insurmountable love I have for a man who loved me so much. He
lied during the pregnancy so my pain wasn’t as severe, making me believe he was
the father of both our children.
There are lies in love, just as much as there are truths.
A man will tell a woman he loves that she doesn’t look fat
in that dress, or that she is the best he’s ever had, or that she is the most
beautiful women on the planet. It may not be true, but he believes it enough to
tell her those things, to make her happy and feel beautiful, and not fat, and
the best he has ever had.
A man like Thomas Hardy would do that for a girl like me.
The pain of his absence is so copious it makes me sick. Sick
to my stomach to the point I do throw up. My body can’t take the sickness it
feels while it breathes in the air that surrounds me, in a world without T.
I slowly lower myself to my knees and cover my face as the
tears spill out, the way they do when I am on this balcony that should have a
rooftop garden that we grew together. A garden that grows and blooms, and comes
to life, surrounded by our love.
I sit back against the brick wall as I take in the comfort
of the pain’s release. I cry until I can’t anymore, and then I take a deep
breath and stand up. I close my eyes once again, one last time for now, and
picture him and all the beauty that is him.
Inside, I walk into the kitchen where I have moved
everything back to where T had it before I moved in. I stand there and try to
make sense of the way he had things put away. It’s stupid. I know it is.
Somewhere deep down, though, I keep hoping he will come back, and I will want
to fix it up for him.
However, he’s not coming back.
Not ever.
I take my multivitamins then force down the damn shake that
Dr. Kennedy brought here after passing her in the hospital when Chance and Hope
had their four-month checkup. She came to the apartment and told me I better be
taking care of myself so I could take care of my children.
She oversteps in ways that are infuriating. I get angry
every time I see her. Though I know I shouldn’t. I know I am directing my anger
at her, but she asks for it, and it’s certainly easier than being angry at T
for leaving me.
That’s another lie that happens when you love someone.
Somehow in the grieving process, you get to a point when you feel betrayed by
the one who left you. Like it was a choice they made.
I opened his closet one day and tore his clothes from the
hangers. I threw them all over the floor. Then I turned to walk out and get a
garbage bag to shove them in. When I returned, though, I saw the mess I made,
and I crumbled into a pile of his things. I sobbed into his shirts that still
smelled like him, like home and happiness and love.
I could never be mad at him for leaving me when it wasn’t
his choice. He was taken away by some fucking drunk who stole a car and will
never be punished for his crime.
Thomas Hardy loved me until his dying breath, just like he
said he would, and I will love him until mine.
That day, in the closet, I cleaned everything up, put it all
back where he had put it—or, at least I let myself believe I did—and I
continued to cry while I did it.
Now I walk toward the laundry room, intent on doing
something that involves taking care of our—yes our—children.
I flip on the light switch, but there isn’t a damn thing to
do. All our clothes are clean, folded, and put away. I am thankful for the help
Mom offered through the nanny, but it gives me too much free time.
Chance and Hope almost sleep through the entire night, only
waking for one feeding each. They take two naps a day, each two hours long. There
is hardly an occasion when one of them are asleep while the other is awake
except the night time feeding.
When they are awake, I feed them, hold them, and simply love
them. God, how I love them. They are my life, my love, the reason I breath,
even though it hurts, and we watch TV.
Movies on TV.
Home movies.
Ones of Thomas Hardy in concert and interviews.
I walk into our room, mine and T’s, not mine and the babies,
and sit on the bed that Thomas and I spent endless hours in. If I close my
eyes, I can picture him here. If I concentrate, I can hear him laugh. If I let
the pain go, I can smile, remembering how he took his time showing me just how
much he loved me.
Until reality sets in, and the pain starts all over again.
I consider taking a shower, but then decide against it. I
can sleep for nearly two hours straight if I go into the baby’s room now.
I look down as I enter, knowing if I look at the mural he
painted first, I will cry. I will cry because it’s unfair that he is gone. It’s
so unfair that I almost hate God. That’s why I look instead at what he left me.
He left me two beautiful children. I will always be grateful
for them. Always. But would He take them, too?
She self-published her first contemporary, new adult romance
in January 2013. Today she has completed seven self-published series, The Love
series, The Wrapped series, The Burning Souls series, The Men of Steel series,
Ties of Steel series, The Rockers of Steel series and The Norfolk series.
MJ is a hybrid author and publishes an Indie book almost
every month, and is signed with a traditional publisher, Loveswept, Penguin
Random House, for her co- written series The Caldwell Brothers. Hendrix,
Morrison, and Jagger. All three books in the series are published. The Caldwell
brothers don’t grow into alphas, when their mother passes away they become her
legacy, her good in the world of bad.
MJ was a former small business owner, who closed shop so she
could write full time. She lives in central New York, surrounded by family and
friends. Her house is full of pets, friends, and noise ninety percent of the
time, and she would have it no other way.
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